Did I, or not?

There appears to be much discussion about 12/21/12. I for one did not feel any difference, but my own feelings of maybe I am not worthy. I was disappointed in myself, that I did not make the grade. This has been the crux of my definition of self for most of my life. It is something of my struggle to obtain enlightenment. It has been something I have struggled with most of my life.
Having studied the works of my Parham guru, Swami Sri Yukteswar, the book called The Holy Science, I already knew within myself that for me the ascension was a gradual process, I still, like many others, hoped it would be quick and easy. But, like so many of us who live in this day and age of instant gratification, I can see the disappointment in not achieving such, and know that it does not stop the ongoing process.
Slow and steady wins the race. I check within myself and still realize the changes that need to take place. I then realize that I have been given a period of grace to work in. We all have, though many do not realize it. We are becoming who we need to be to work in this dimension of our earth. We are becoming our God self, or our higher self. And that is no small, quick fix, well at least for most of us. It is something we all wanted to do together.
Let your love grow and let it show in your world. As a single mother trying to raise my children on my own, I often worried about having a roof over our heads and food on the table, or paying our bills so we would have electricity, water, and gas. I was given a challenge. “If you help feed someone else or share just what you have, you will never be without shelter or food.” I can honestly say, though sometimes it has been precarious, HE has always upheld HIS end of the bargain. One of the keys is in learning to give of yourself. Another is love, straight from the heart. Have a willingness to work from the heart, without judgment. See peace and harmony for your future and the future of all humanity. Learn to create the best world for all people. In doing so, we all succeed.
We are already in the process and have been in this process for some time. Maybe that is why we don’t recognize the changes yet. I certainly have seen and felt the peace and tranquility, the beauty, of this experience for a few years now. Let’s think about this for a while and open ourselves to the infinite good that upholds us all the way. And take the time given to us to make the attitude adjustments needed to progress along our path.
In truth, light, and love. Namaste.

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One Response to Did I, or not?

  1. Janet says:

    I see the changes happening in me, but they are small, incremental, and lead to a gradual understanding of the bigger picture. Where before I saw nothing but adversity, I’m now able to see a different perspective that brings happiness. It’s not a bolt of lightning, it’s more like walking down a path and talking with a friend. She points out a flower you never noticed before and the world seems to slowly reveal more beauty, because you are more open to it. You are more eager to seek it out. You must keep seeking, or you will close yourself off again.

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